I'm tired.
I've been tired a lot lately, on every level.
So, when I was physically tired, partially due to the fact that you have woken me up twice already in one week, causing me to get less than 3 hours of sleep those two days already once this week, I'm just done.
Turn off the TV, tell you that you didn't have to yell for any reason where I'm sleeping, it's after midnight. You want to argue. Well, I am not in the mood, and I probably chose the wrong words: "Shut up. Please just shut up, so I can go back to sleep! I've barely slept this week, and I just need to go back to sleep!"
Of course. Oops. Now, you HAVE to keep me up with: "You have to fucking ruin everything! Why do you always have to turn everything to shit?! Why did you have to ruin MY night?!"
I need sleep. I ask him just to go, so I can just sleep, but now the goal is to stay in my face and not let me sleep, so now I'm literally begging you to please just leave me alone, so I can sleep.
But you won't.
You have off tomorrow. If I take the kids, you would claim kidnapping, and they are asleep. I'll just go somewhere else to sleep, I need it so badly.
Grab my bag and walk out. I can't do this tonight. I don't care if I sleep in my car in a parking lot, I am exhausted and I can't do this right now. I've never walked out, but begging in near tears to be left alone so I can just sleep wasn't going to work.
But, no, you can't let me go, right?
You call me, informing me that you're in the car right me. Using the fact that if the toddler wakes up alone, she will -freak out-, or even come looking for us in the middle of the night. Promising me that you'll leave me alone "if you just come home".
... you did that. You used my kids as a weapon to make me do what you want me to do. And if I wake them up to leave with me when I get home? Then *I* am the psycho wife who took away your kids in the middle of the night "for no reason".
I come home, just let me sleep, I'll figure out something.
But... you don't. You lay there right next to me anyway when I am home, and I cry and cry.
And I never do get back to sleep.
